Not that much, anyway.
A few months ago, my friends urged me to write about the latest big decision I have made of late – quitting my corporate job. And i promised them I would. So here I am, trying to articulate the roller coaster ride of an experience I had during the last 18 months of my 10 years, 7 months and 18 days of working in a multinational company.
I resigned. Why did I do it? I simply felt that I had enough. I could manage the work-related stress even if the demands of my job drained me to the core, but not the politics that went with it. Yes, maybe I was just sensitive, even a weakling, but the only thing that mattered to me was for me to get out of that black hole that was sucking all the positive energy from me. I couldn’t let that continue or else, I would be consumed.
Making the decision myself, for myself was easy. But getting my husband to support what I wanted was, well, let’s just say, a different story…
My husband is a very practical man and with 3 young kids, our household expenses is really on the high side so I understand all his fears. I would not go into details anymore but when he saw how unhappy I was already, he gave me his go signal saying that he wanted me to be happy. Sweet 🙂
My husband and I both worked (he still does) in multinational companies. We both had good positions and pay and benefits were good. And with those, we are able to live a more than comfortable lifestyle. So with the BIG change that was bound to happen, I had to make sure that the kids understood, somehow, that there might be changes.
Fortunately, my daughters are still in the age when I am still the love of their life. So more than anything else, they were super happy. They couldn’t wait! I was teary-eyed when one of my daughters thanked the Lord for my decision during one of her bedtime prayers. Then after, they would do a countdown to my last day at work. For that alone, I knew that I made the decision.
I jumped but I did not JUST jump. I prayed and prepared for it. After my husband agreed, I had to make a more concrete plan, not for anything else but because I wanted to have more confidence in my decision.
First thing I did was to figure out when I should resign. To give myself more time to plan for my next career move, I gave myself 4 months. I pressured myself with a timeline to make sure that I am working on what needed to be worked on: emotional, mental, and financial preparedness, and as I have mentioned, my next moves. It was also a good gauge if my decision was what I really want and not just a spur of the moment thing. None from my office knew of it.
I looked for a possible business venture and found one. I started working on it until an unexpected offer came.
THe BIG MAN UP THERE
He truly is amazing. Right after I made up my mind, everything fell into place – first, the business opportunity, then I was offered by a very good friend of mine to be an AGM/partner in his small but growing pharma trading company with flexi-time. And though the pay was lower, I wholeheartedly agreed because of the limitless possibilities that we can do together. He has big dreams and I am inspired by him and I am excited to be a part of the team when his dreams get fulfilled.
Needless to say, I am now happier.
Allow me to impart some learnings.
1. When I quit and started exploring the “outside world,” I realized that there really is a lot of opportunites waiting for us to discover and grab. I had meetings with people 10 years younger than me who are very successful and they motivate me and show me how exciting the future is.
2. When people found out I resigned, they had mixed emotions. Some agreed but there were also those who perceived my decision as giving up. But when I decided to resign, i also made sure that I can stand by my decision. I told myself that I won’t let people’s opinion matter because only I know what I was going through.
3. Lastly, you don’t have to know exactly what you want now. As long as you know to whom your goals are for, then, I believe, that’s good enough to start a new journey.
4. Ultimately, your responsibility is first to yourself, then to your loved ones, lastly to the company you are working for.
5. Most importantly, pray. And you will never go wrong.